“I was alone when I got to Peru, and I realised how deep this was. I didn’t know how to get myself out of it. I don’t know if it’s true that people were watching me all the time, but I really believed that, I think we were being watched at all times. I’d tried to tell them – the cartel members we met – my fears, and said I don’t think this is going to work, and they’d said it wasn’t a big deal, that I was overthinking things. I started to question myself, thinking, is it normal for me to be questioning this? Any time I brought up these feelings it was pushed away, like ‘you’re really young, you’re just being dramatic’. It was like, mind games. I was scared of what might happen to me if I did try and walk away.